While recovering from my blind faith in Big Pharma poisons over the last decade, I had nothing but time and too much crap to watch. I watched all I could to distract me from my existential angst. There was only one thing barely keeping me alive. Not love. Not purpose. Not faith. Nothing they always tell you, "You must go on for..." Just curiosity.
I basically had no will to live and could barely summon the will to simply download. All the crap I could from Torrentz, now Torrentz2. I couldn't be bothered to look beyond that one site. Just mainstream garbage - television, movies, talk shows, documentaries, etc. I had no enjoyment in anything, but I appreciated learning from documentaries - though I was often disappointed.
(I feel like I've had a glimpse into what it might be like to be retarded, for lack of a better word. The curse of being simple minded, under motivated, not clear headed, etc. Except I still knew things from before, though not well. Fortunately I'm feeling like I've got 90-95% back, so far. My health is another story.)
From day to day, week to week, and month to month there was no change. But looking back in half year increments I could say for the most part I was gradually making very slow progress. As I recovered, vitality reemerged as did energy. And from using only 3 websites, Torrentz, IMDb, and Wikipedia, I began branching out to more seeking better answers than the shitty documentaries without proper context or obviously ignoring blatant flaws in their presentations' logic. That's when I rediscovered YouTube in 2014 or 2015. I hated the poor quality videos but I loved the rich content with profoundly greater context. It was faster than downloading and I remembered I didn't have to finish crappy shows. I also discovered Quora and started editing Wikipedia more. Quora banned me for no given reason and Wikipedia banned me for 2017, for being "another polite truther". My television and movie watching plummeted and I consume mostly YouTube. Back then it was simply more interesting. These days it's because I see through the banal distraction and the embedded propaganda in everything.
Of the very few television shows I still watch, Endeavour is one. A 1960s detective in Oxford. It'd kinda cleverish, but not really. Well produced and glossy.
So I'm 16 minutes into the 2019-02-24 "Confection", the season 6 episode 3 of the Endeavour series which features a fox hunt where a murdered aristocrat named Creswell has an injured horse named Bucephalus. And this takes me on a series of Wikipedia rabbit holes.
I look up Bucephalus. It's the horse of Alexander the Great. But I notice there are several other historical media references missing so I add them. Including the horse of Baron Munchausen.
Baron Munchausen was created by a German writer, scientist, and con artist, Rudolf Erich Raspe as was documented in the bibliography by John Patrick Carswell, 1918-1997 (no relation that I know of).
My name Carswell, has many variations, including Creswell, the murdered character. So I look up Carswell. There's not many there, so I added a bunch.
Another interesting fellow was 7 foot tall John Carswell, aka Séon Carsuel, 1522-1572 (again, no relation that I know of), a 16th-century Scottish prelate, humanist, and Protestant reformer - but I digress.
Now I'm not into names and heraldry, etc. But my name is my name. Out of 64 great...grandparents only one passed me his name. The other 63 were just as important. Also, you can just swing a cat in my family to hit all the people I have so little in common with, so family may be nice for some but it's sure not all the movies make it out to be. Just ask the orphans.
Still, while I was there I learned that the Carswell Air Force Base (no relation) near Fort Worth, Texas changed its name to Naval Air Station Joint Reserve Base Fort Worth. So I'm glad my name isn't on a military base anymore. BUT, the "Federal Medical Center, Carswell" (FMC Carswell), is still there on base and it is the U.S. federal prison for female inmates of all security levels with special medical and mental health needs.
This is where former FBI special agent and 9/11 whistleblower, Coleen Rowley was held for 5 years when the government said she was crazy when she wouldn't go along with their narrative. She had foreknowledge of 9/11. I can only wonder how many other political prisoners are held at the NAS/JRB.
Sadly the only reason I remember Coleen Rowley's name is because before I put my blind faith in Big Pharma poisons, I had a girlfriend of several years, Janet Rowley. She was my "the one".
So if you connect all these things together, what do you get?
A big fat circular rant of nothingness.
It doesn't mean anything.
When I started this I thought it might be interesting. The conspiracy theorist stereotype with the wall and red string is often amusing connecting unrelated things together. Sometimes you just gotta try and find out. Turns out I just typed up a bunch of self indulgent naught. I can't even be bothered to check it over. So now, do I delete or post? No one reads my shit anyway. Maybe I'll feel different tomorrow.
I deeply apologize for wasting your time if you bothered to read this far.
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